I trust God...don't I?

  It is so much easier said then done. Why is it we have the greatest intentions to live out God's word to be as close to a resemblance of Christ and yet we fall short. More often then I wish care to admit. Here I am sharing how I feel about something...I feel it so strong and yet I'm doing the opposite of what I share. So what happens when I am confronted with truth that I am not practicing what I preach. Well it brings me to a cross road am I going to continue to travel the road that even though I believe something else am I going to continue, or change that specific disobedience in my spirit and just trust God?
  It's easy to say that I trust God in every section of my life but then when challenged what do you really believe? You realize hmm I lack in this area . So in this section I seem to lack trust in God I am taking the dive and giving Him the situation completely. It's not always a happy moment when you are pointed out your flaws (have salt poured in the wounds so to speak), but it is a momentous moment when you do what is right to change to be as close as you can to Lord Jesus. That's what I want more then life itself. I want to love like Him, live like Him, reach like Him, forgive like Him, and I know I am so far still but I also know I am nothing like I used to be because of Him.
 I know that I am constantly put in situations to keep stretching me and molding me. Moments that I wish so many times not to be in. When people you love are the ones that hurt you the most. That because they feel wronged I have become the person that they release passionate anger upon, where they have completely humiliated me and in front of my children. To the point that they ask "Mommy why does that person talk to you like that?" and before you answer them you have to remind yourself that that person is aiming to be like Christ too. That their flaws are no more then mine, and even though they can make me feel worthless I am still special to the one who made me, and that He knows why better than I He has put me in these situations. So I answer my children "Because no one is perfect, that we all keep making mistakes, what is important is that we keep forgiving and loving and not hold value to how others treat or talk to us but know who we are in Christ and how precious we are to Him. So do I trust God?....Yes and will continue to give Him every area of my life to Him because He loves me.