I am fearfully and wonderfully made?

Lately I have been ranting how I want even need to lose weight..in all honesty I do, but I was starting to become obsessive about it as I used to in the past, which will only lead to behavior I cannot and will not go back to. Last night I decided to read the Bible to calm my head. It's amazing how God speaks to you so gently and corrects you, but you must then be willing to recieve the correction. I am a woman by birth-He has skillfully crafted me to be unique. I am learning from personal experience that I can not function the way I need to as long as shame of how I look begins to rule my life. I am learning what I must and can't do, and that I want things to be according to God's word. I have to allow the Word of God and the Holy spirit to help me change. I have to be very clear with myself that I can not show displeased with my looks for that can then be carried to my daughters. How is it I tell them over and over that they are beautiful and God made them beautiful inside out and yet rip myself apart over gaining weight that I accrued from their birth right in front of them? How can I teach them to be confident in who God says they are, yet not do the same? And if God the creator of all things says that "I am fearfully and wonderfully made" then how dare I question the truth of that just over weight that I have gained. Instead of pleasing myself , I will focus on pleasing God first. Allow Him to work in me and change me. He has specifically called me to be and do certain things, And like all seasons I am realizing that I am going through yet another season regarding my weight. So with the help of God and self-control I will return to a healthy weight in due time, and I refuse to worry over it.


"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:14